Rain

I'm thankful for another day,
for these few words to say,
He sent him to uncharted land
he followed, it was a command.
Family, friends into the unseen
Oh Lord, what did this all mean?
He was chosen to be a leader,
to rise up and govern a people
who now gather under a steeple.
What does it mean to worship?
Feelings of futility, demolish i'?
Or a beautiful edifice to praise
and glory at its lighting arrays?
What does this mean, live life?
to be free of worry and strife?
Or is there greater meaning,
than an error in need of cleaning.

Pick a day to eat good food
improve this dreary mood.
life is not that downtrodden.
go sing that song by Aladdin

Dissonance

I’ve placed a lot of trust in you with that testimony. I realize now that it may have been too much information, but I did not see it as that. I took it to heart that you would be able to understand where I was coming from and maybe see how I am different now. I thought I could trust you as a leader to give me feedback, to show me how to move on, how to progress. And when I tried to offer myself to do some work in ministry, I was shot down. Is this the beating that we get in trying to work for the Lord? I told you about an effort to talk to someone about the Gospel. You told me to let him have his fun. What is it that I am supposed to think? That I am supposed to meekly allow things to occur in time. Pray for him indeed, but still, I feel a real disconnect at the moment. The Lord says He will be with us always, that He will make our paths straight, and I pray, this is how I will live my life. I’m clutching at a narrow chasm here. I need some help.